Linggo, Pebrero 27

post game trauma

"anything less than mad, passionate, extraordinary love is a waste of your time. there are too many mediocre things in life to deal with and love shouldn't be one of them."
---A DREAM FOR AN INSOMNIAC

- i agree.

today i realized two things:

1. all wounds do heal in time BUT when someone fouls the hell out of you, these wounds open up again and they become more painful. this applies to ALL wounds.

-it's like when someone you've been trying so hard to forget and forgive suddenly pops out of nowhere and wants to be friends. FOUL!
-it's like when someone you love hurts you and then acts like nothing wrong happened after you said "it's alright"
-it's like when i tell myself that it's over but i know that it's not.

2. there is more to life than being happy.

-pain is also good. in all its forms.
-i can be happy and yet feel pretty used inside
-i can be happy only if i let go of the things i refuse to let go of

~*~
the game was BAD. i hated the way i got injured. it hurt. and i had to get off the field because of it.

fuuuucccckkk....

but anyways, there's more. i was doing defense against miriam. i was right in front of the goal. the ball was coming straight at me. i tried to bounce it out with my chest (yes, my boobies) but it bounced off my hand. penalty kick sila. hand ball. punyeta. pumasok pa.

my team mate (who always played forward but was sent to the wing defense by coach for god knows what reason) kept on screaming instructions to me while i was doing mid field. punyeta. i got so distracted. shet. i officially hate mid field.

coach got this bright idea and put ME of all people in mid field forward. shet. shet. it was a disaster. i couldnt penetrate the defense. three people were ganging up on me. shet.

i ended up running up and down the WHOLE field.

punyeta.

~*~

and to add to my misery..a quote sent out by my love sick rotc classmate...

"It's funny how we set qualifications for the right person to love while at the back of our minds we know that the person we truly love will always be an exception"
---Ally McBeal

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