today

im not sure how i feel...

i want to talk to you but i don't want to talk to you.

i want to keep on loving you but i want to stop this madness...

all you do is hurt me. and i can't even get myself to accept that. i want to give up. NOW. i want to but i just can't get myself to do it. i hope this one week hiatus will do us both some good. because personally, i don't know what to do anymore. if i had my way, we'd talk when classes are over. because i want you to study. i want you to work.

and i want to get used to living without you...seeing that it is highly possible at the moment.

punyeta.

timothy, i honestly don't know why the hell i love you. it trancends all known logic. it is illogical, unreasonable and completely irrational to love you. it really is. and i don't why i keep on doing it. but nevertheless, even if i don't know why...i still do.

i just wish you'd resolve your issues. they're not making you easier to love and understand. your issues are becoming such a pain in the arse.

YOU REALLY ARE A PAIN.

i honestly think so.