rebuilding...

masyado na ata ako natutuwa dito sa aking brand new blog. "secret" kasi sha e. kaya i can rant and rant at walang magcocomment or makababasa kasi secret nga e.

well, except si timo..malamang mababasa din nya ito. (hah!stalker ka dude!) bwahahaha...

anyways, as i said earlier i was going out for some starbuck's with nelli. nelli is my best friend and also my ex best friend. ex best friend?? baket? to make a long sordid story short, inagawan ko sha ng minamahal. so ayun, mula noon...hindi na naging maayos ang relationship namin.

back to the present. i really appreciate that she goes out of her way to spend time with me. with everything that she does (she works at a call center and is a member of UP manila's chorale) nagyayaya pa rin sha na lumabas minsan. touched nga ako kasi "best" pa rin ang tawag niya sa akin even if im not really the "best friend". baka in our case, talagang applicable yung "time heals all wounds". it's safe to say na we're rebuilding our friendship. after more than a year since the "incident". and i've come to realize that no guy is worth loosing your best friend. kasi when that guy leaves you, your best friend will still be there. kaya eto ako, nagsisisi ako na pinili ko si ren over nelli. and hindi naman ganon kagaling ang relationship namin ni ren kaya walang kwenta lang.

nelli, im so sorry for everything that happpened & the pain i inflicted on you. there's no excuse for it, best. and im not planning to make one anytime soon. i hurt you when i should have just let go of him. hindi ko kasi na-realize na marami naman palang lalaki sa mundo. i hope you know that after everything, i feel na i will always be indebted to you...kaya salamat sa pakakaibigan. nasaktan kita, at nanghihinayang ako sa panahong nawala sa atin. dapat talaga nakinig ako sa iyo noon ng mas mabuti. i should have been more sensitive. salamat nelli, sa pagintindi mo sa akin. i am grateful.

ayan, drama nanaman. ayos lang. wala namang ibang makababasa e.