this goes to YOU

i don't want to fall in love with you. in fact, i don't want to fall in love with anyone. i don't hate you. it's just that it's hopeless and i don't want to be writhing in pain once more. and that is reason enough for me not to fall in love with you. and it doesn't help that im just your friend. will always be just your friend. i hope you never get too see this. i hope you just forget that i ever existed. because falling in love with you would be a mistake.

and i've commited that mistake.

im falling in love with you and i barely know you.

you can't love me because you don't know me.

so what to do?

i will procastinate the hell out of here

i will move on with my life.

and i will try to teach my heart to stop loving people who cannot and will not love me.

and ill try to forget you.

that seems an awful lot to do.

loving you from a distance seems a little easier to do, less tasking.

but it would hurt more. i think.

by now, i should be used to getting hurt. but the thing is, im always optimistic. and i almost always give things a chance. i always try to see the goodness in people. and it really wasn't that hard to see the goodness that you have. it was all about you, intoxicating me. and it's sad that i never will tell you. it's sad that you'll never know. but i guess it's only right that i never tell you.

that im here. and im falling in love with you.

pakshet.